Motivational Fear

When you think of the word fear it usually creates an image of scary clowns or drowning or running for your life. It is that, but so much more. Fear can motivate you and demotivate you. It can cause a person to jump from a burning building, stand in front of a person holding a gun to your family, or just make you change your lifestyle.

I have a fear. Well, I have many fears, but my main one is that I will not be around to enjoy my family. I fear that I will die at an early age because of my unhealthy decisions. I have been overweight for more than half of my life. I have not taken care of myself and now, I can not even climb up 1 flight of stairs without huffing and puffing and feeling like I am dying. I am scared. I fear for my life.

I have had many fears before. I have jumped into the Gulf and was not a very good swimmer (ya...it was a dare), I held 2 live grenades and was informed if I dropped them I would die (gotta love the Army), one of my daughters had several seizures, and I have been in a couple of wrecks... this is just to name a few. But these fears do not compare to the fear of not being able to see my grandchildren and great grandchildren. Of not being able to hold them and play with them. My in laws are constantly on the go with their grandkids. They take them to the mall or the park or the RenFaire. This is what I want.

So why am I lamenting about fear? What am I going to do about it? I am changing my life. I am taking control of my life. For too long I have been miserable and I have wallowed in it, not getting out of it, just digging myself deeper.

I am about to do the Bariatric Sleeve procedure. This is the first step in getting back my life. No, it is not a magic bullet. It is a major change in lifestyle, from eating to exercise to happiness. I feel that I will become a whole new person. No longer will I have to fill myself up, but now I will eat to  my needs. Exercise will come easier without the weight dragging me down. My health will become priority and my life will become mine. I look forward to having my life be what it should be.

Working Our Way to The Land Of Milk and Honey

What is Financial Peace? Being able to pay for anything with cash only? Having no debt? Creating a future for yourself and your family?

The answer? YES to all!

My husband and I have been taking the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace class and we have had such an eye opener. It has been heartbreaking at the same time. We are more in debt than we realized. We do not have any credit cards, but our main debt is medical. We also have realized that we are not leaving a future for our children. We have been creating a financial nightmare for them. We now know what our future will be... debt free and grandchildren fun ready!

For anyone that has not taken his class before, I plead with you to take it! It does not make a difference how old you are. Our 2 teens are going through his teen class. They are amazed at what they are learning. This will help them create a debt free and secure future.

Taking this class has given us a second chance at a happier future. I am so grateful that our church decided to have it. It happened at the right time in our life.

Wordless Wednesday

I have seen many other Bloggers do a "Wordless Wednesday", and I love the idea. I think what I might try to do is create a theme or word for the day and see what I can accomplish. To start out simple, I think today shall be....

Breathtaking

* Just a note* My mother-in-law took these pictures while driving to Brady, Texas. The fields are quite beautiful driving in the country.

Midlife meaning of blah

Midlife Crisis is a term coined in 1965 by Elliott Jaques and is significant for a time in which adults come to realize their own mortality and how much time is left in their lives.
 
Most people change everything in their lives. Some try to get back their wild and free 20 year old ways. Some create a whole new identity and life.

Me? I wasn't quite wild and free in my 20's. I had my first child by 20 and 2 years later had my 2nd. 2 years after that I was divorced, but was blessed to find my soul mate afterward.

No. I do not want to go back to those years. I do not want to drastically change my appearance and life.

I guess you could say I am not quite having a midlife crisis as much as I am having a midlife blah blah.

I do want to change who I am. I am not happy with me. I love my husband and my 4 children and our home (well I would like to remodel a lot of my home).

Nope, I am unhappy with how I have grown. I want to change that.

Why am I telling you this? Perhaps this is my way of having my midlife blah blah and being able to change myself for the better.

I have tried a couple of other blogs, but was unmotivated to finish or work on them.  I am ready to start my new chapter and become the woman my family believes I am/ can be.

Welcome! I hope that this blog can maybe help you if you are having a midlife blah blah, too.